When God, the universe, and a small puppy knock you off your feet so completely that you break both ankles, it feels kind-of personal. In an Old Testament kind of way.
An invisible match still burns the toes on my left foot. Super grateful it’s not a blow torch any more! I’m motivated to learn what I should.
I’ve been thinking about habits of mind, spirit, and body. I’m ruminating on right relationship with God and fellow man, taking a good hard look at the ways I fail and have failed. OUCH! DARN! UGH.
Living the sofa life has some easier, gentler moments, too. Here are some scenes from the last two weeks plus a Bacon on the Sofa book recommendation…
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In the morning I sit at the “daytime” end of the sofa because the view is better here. Pepper and Daisy and I spend a lot of time looking out the window.
First the silver maple traded green for yellow;
next the Autumn Blaze caught fire;
and October Glory runs the final lap for the front yard maples.
Pumpkin muffins and hot chocolate play starring roles nearly every day. I’ve gone all Rapunzel for them.
Daisy has mad skills as a knee-warmer and toe-warmer;
Pepper is queen of all she surveys (well, she is queen of Daisy), and she is happy.
Food arrives, and friends; flowers; kind messages; I see that perhaps I am both likeable and lovable. I want to be the best version of myself. My friends help remind me who that is.
My husband takes good care of me, the house, and the dogs, and I think: we are on this unchosen journey together. I wonder: where will it take us?
In the night, unasleep, I see strange shadows.
I am broken and also healing.
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Bacon On the Sofa recommendation (more to come after I finish reading it & after book club discussion!) ~
From the publisher:
From the #1 New York Times bestselling author of A Man Called Ove comes a charming, poignant novel about a crime that never took place, a would-be bank robber who disappears into thin air, and eight extremely anxious strangers who find they have more in common than they ever imagined.
Looking at real estate isn’t usually a life-or-death situation, but an apartment open house becomes just that when a failed bank robber bursts in and takes a group of strangers hostage. The captives include a recently retired couple who relentlessly hunt down fixer-uppers to avoid the painful truth that they can’t fix their own marriage. There’s a wealthy bank director who has been too busy to care about anyone else and a young couple who are about to have their first child but can’t seem to agree on anything, from where they want to live to how they met in the first place. Add to the mix an eighty-seven-year-old woman who has lived long enough not to be afraid of someone waving a gun in her face, a flustered but still-ready-to-make-a-deal real estate agent, and a mystery man who has locked himself in the apartment’s only bathroom, and you’ve got the worst group of hostages in the world.
Each of them carries a lifetime of grievances, hurts, secrets, and passions that are ready to boil over. None of them is entirely who they appear to be. And all of them—the bank robber included—desperately crave some sort of rescue. As the authorities and the media surround the premises these reluctant allies will reveal surprising truths about themselves and set in motion a chain of events so unexpected that even they can hardly explain what happens next.
Rich with Fredrik Backman’s “pitch-perfect dialogue and an unparalleled understanding of human nature” (Shelf Awareness), Anxious People is an ingeniously constructed story about the enduring power of friendship, forgiveness, and hope—the things that save us, even in the most anxious times.
“Backman again captures the messy essence of being human… It’s clever and affecting, as likely to make you laugh out loud as it is to make you cry.” —Washington Post
“An endlessly entertaining mood booster.” —Real Simple
“This book examines how a shared event can change the course of many lives at once. And if you like strongly drawn characters and a mix of humor and heartbreak, this one’s for you.” –The Skimm
Wonderful, brave, beautiful Jennifer! I want that match to go out right away…xo
Dear Betsy – thank you!! Perhaps it will when it is time. Thank for your loving words and care – xoxo
Have been thinking so much of you! So happy to see your smiling face. I’m reading that book too and loving it! Let’s have a mini book club over the phone. 🙂
Dear Dallas – I would love that so much!! I have been thinking of you as well!! I look forward to seeing you before too long. Xoxo
Thinking of you Jen!!! You look beautiful—was so nice to see your face and your perch looks so very cozy and inviting!! Your nurses are pretty awesome too. Sending you much love and healing energy. Xoxox
Dear Daphne – It is a good perch! And how lovely to hear from you this morning! I feel your love and healing energy, dear friend… xoxo
You are missed in the great wide world–and by so many! Your voice in Bacon is a balm to the spirit, and your openness to whatever this means (yes, it looks Old Testament-y to me too!) is an inspiration. xoxo
Dear Beth – I miss you!! You are a balm to my spirit always. Xoxo
Two miracles in one week: you got out of your cast and the COMMENTS ARE BACK!!! Hooray for both! I just finished reading Anxious People and think it will be a very enjoyable read for you right now.
Dear Mary – Miracles and pumpkin muffins abound!! And let’s talk about the book soon!! I can’t wait to hear what you think!! Xoxo
Bless you, Jennifer! I am so so sorry about your ankles. Sending healing prayers on Himalayan winds.
Dear Linda – What an image and a blessing. Thank you. Xoxo
So sorry for your pain but so glad you have those two little helpers to both relax and entertain you.
Hope you will be all better soon!!
Getting by with important help from Pepper + Daisy + Percocet!! Thank you so much for your warm wishes, Sandra!! Xoxo
Hot dawg! Bacon’s back, and so are YOU. Save the boot and don’t get on another airplane without it. The service ramps way up.
Eager to read the new Backman book. Have read Beartown through four times, Ove twice.
Desperately sorry about BOTH ankles, but time for somebody to take care of you. Prayers continue to ascend. Hang in there.
Dear John – You make me smile!! Prayers are the greatest gift. And I love that you are a Backman fan too!! xoxo
I am late to the news and so TREMENDOUSLY sorry for your mishap!!!! Bless your heart… big prayers for quick and complete healing. You have such a positive spirit, sweet friend. I miss seeing you.
Thank you, dear Barby! I miss seeing you as well. It is a pleasure to hear from you!! Xoxo
Oh No! I hate to read this news but even in adversity you are still filling us with lovely treats in our inbox! Get well quickly….at least mother nature delivered beautiful fall leaves.
Hi Jane! The fall is so beautiful. And cozy. I don’t mind the early darkness. Thank you for being in touch!! It lifts my spirit to hear from you. Xoxo
I’m so sorry for your accident and the pain it’s caused but I guess it’s another excuse to slow down and smell the roses – as if we needed another reason besides the pandemic. If anyone can utilize time well, it’s you, Jennifer. Thinking about you and wishing you less pain and for you to be back on your feet again soon (literally)!
That is exactly right, Laurie – exactly. I have often thought of how hard this would be for someone more athletic than I am. I have plenty of distractions! And thank you for the kind compliment. Xoxo
Oh my, Jennifer! Welcome back, bless you and your ankles. May the healing continue. This is a time for staying close to the ground and moving slowly. I’m glad you have some splendid companions keeping you steady. And may we all find meaning in the struggles of these times.
That is a lovely blessing for us all, Mary. Thank you – xoxo
Jennifer: Empathy sent from Charleston where I have come for Thanksgiving. Years ago our two boxer dogs, racing around our front yard, clipped me from behind and trying to break the fall, I broke my left arm and shoulder. I had two small baby boys then. Time does heal these things but it is challenging in the meantime. Glad to see that you are carrying on your good work, brightening our days.
Dear Martha – What a treat to hear from you! Thank you so much for warm wishes from Charleston and for your very kind words! Oh heavens I’m sorry you’ve been in a similar position. Much harder with two little fellas underfoot. I hope you enjoy a wonderful Thanksgiving! Xoxo
So glad you’re on the mend, with the best caregivers one could ask for. And yes, always start with the spring rolls. Best advice of the day. Keep us in the loop!
Right?! And will do, dear Don. Xoxo
Jennifer, Wow! I’ve missed your posts and now I know why. What a tough time to be home alone with not one, but two broken ankles. I have some delicious lentil and butternut squash soup that I will drop by your house.
Dear Judy – How incredibly kind!! Thank you!! What a treat!! My husband and I would be so grateful. Xoxo
Jennifer. Wow I spent almost all of last year in a straight leg brace. I also had the best 4 legged nurse ever. Worried about weight gain I stopped drinking wine, took up vodka much less sugar hahahah. Bridge on-line Netflix and needlepoint became great fillers when my eyes could not read anymore. “Anxious People” kept me laughing and so entertained. Bachman is a wonderful salve. I walked 2 pain free miles yesterday. This too will pass. Much love and many thoughts. Georgia
Oh Georgia – I can hardly imagine almost a year in a straight leg brace. Your message is such an encouragement!! Thank you. I am so, so grateful. Xoxo